As I was going through some papers this morning, it hit me. Today makes 6 years ago that Department of Children and families showed up at my moms to perform their investigation because I failed a drug screen for probation. My nightmare had then began! My whole world was turned upside down. "what was I going to do now" is all I could think. What have I done. The next morning we had court for emergency placement. The investigator told me in court I would never make it. I was a "needle junkie" he called me and had about a 1% chance of ever recovering. I told him dont you worry "I got this"
I spent months in jail waiting on a bed, and finally was sent to the Orlando Bridge. I worked very hard on my recovery while there. I was finally figuring out who the real ME was again. It was the longest 6 months of my whole entire life. Everyday there I missed my family, I missed my kids, I just wanted to be home and be home and stay sober. I graduated that program. The first thing in my entire life I had ever completed.
Once I got home, it wasnt over I still had a long way to go. I had to find a job, I had alot to do to be able to even write the judge. I started work then I had another set back. I got a letter in the mail I had to go back to court for child support. I didnt think it was ever going to be over. I finally got my letter wrote to the judge to get my case reopened. I got a court date FINALLY!!! The case worker looked at me and I asked him what happened to his 1% now? I started my case plan went to tons and tons of parenting classes all kinds of counseling and I was on the road to getting my life back together. It felt so good to be me again and have my family back with me. The happiest day of my life when the judge ordered reunification. :)
I just want you all to know its sometimes a struggle, and what appears to be alot of work. But it can be done. I am living proof of it. Now 6 years later I have my kids we live a great life. In our own home, I married my very best friend. And my life could not be any happier. Dont ever give up it can be done!! I just decided to do the blog thing. I am sure its not the best. But practice make perfect. Right? I hope you enjoyed and if this is a battle your going through just remember "you can do it"!!! For me I will keep on with my recovery. And reach out to others that struggle with addiction. All I want to do is help others and get them through it. So for now I will just live...